To be honest, External validation has been the guiding force behind my decision making, and quite frankly, I’m tired of it. I allow people to hype me up or tear me down, giving no thought to what I truly want and need. It’s a miserable reality. Can’t say what I want. Express how I truly […]
MoreWhen I think of you, There’s something inspiring about being by your side. You expose me to all possibilities, whether or not they are tough to get. Your smile radiates my kneecaps and helps me to forget everything bad because you value my happiness and remind me every day of what I deserve. You work […]
MoreWhile Alexandra Elle speaks gently to me (*cough* as I listen to her audiobook *cough*), I find myself here again. Where’s here, you ask? In friendship purgatory. The room I can’t seem to leave. As a matter of fact, the purchase of this book was my first step to working my way up outta here. […]
MoreI have had nothing but time to think about all of the relationships I have had in my life. Platonic. Romantic. Current. And, I’ve come to a conclusion. I am suffering from this never-ending feeling of solitude. Relationships feel so one-sided; so incomplete. So much so that I feel like I genuinely exist in my […]
MoreHe didn’t hold a place in my heart as Aaron* and Ezra* did, but he was a key component to my young-adult life crisis. He was the man with whom I had my first, and probably last, one night stand with. He was the man who got the goodies without a date, without a bond, […]
MoreWhen is the right time to speak up? How do you determine that it is fair for you to share your thoughts? Will it matter if it’s well received? This past year has been too much, friends. I honestly don’t know where to start. Well, one, the level of dissatisfaction I have in my life […]
MoreSo. My manager has concluded that I am hard on myself and don’t believe that I can do “it.” She finds that I don’t feel that letting things go and moving forward is within the locus of my control. Well. That’s true. Except, It has nothing to do with my current career. Will I admit […]
MoreThis escalated quickly, but it came at no surprise. You know. It’s rather cliche, but when people show you who they are, believe them. Every. Single. Time. Consider every word. Every action. You’re not crazy. [Can we ban the word ‘crazy’, actually?] How is she a part of this series already? I had just met […]
MoreThis one I felt needed to stay in the vault. It took me YEARS to get over this, let alone stop thinking about it. Here and there, it pops up in my mind and I’m like, “who summoned you?”. This is one of those “shoulda, woulda, coulda” joints. This “friendship” was the root of my […]
More…time never goes our way, but we still find ourselves mad at it. Trying to control it. Planning every hour. Every minute. Hell, every second. I’m often mad at time. Swear I’m on top of it and it runs from beneath me. I often hate the end of time. End of vacations. End of shows. […]
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