I have had nothing but time to think about all of the relationships I have had in my life. Platonic. Romantic. Current. And, I’ve come to a conclusion. I am suffering from this never-ending feeling of solitude. Relationships feel so one-sided; so incomplete. So much so that I feel like I genuinely exist in my […]
MoreHe didn’t hold a place in my heart as Aaron* and Ezra* did, but he was a key component to my young-adult life crisis. He was the man with whom I had my first, and probably last, one night stand with. He was the man who got the goodies without a date, without a bond, […]
MoreWhen is the right time to speak up? How do you determine that it is fair for you to share your thoughts? Will it matter if it’s well received? This past year has been too much, friends. I honestly don’t know where to start. Well, one, the level of dissatisfaction I have in my life […]
MoreSo. My manager has concluded that I am hard on myself and don’t believe that I can do “it.” She finds that I don’t feel that letting things go and moving forward is within the locus of my control. Well. That’s true. Except, It has nothing to do with my current career. Will I admit […]
MoreThis escalated quickly, but it came at no surprise. You know. It’s rather cliche, but when people show you who they are, believe them. Every. Single. Time. Consider every word. Every action. You’re not crazy. [Can we ban the word ‘crazy’, actually?] How is she a part of this series already? I had just met […]
MoreThis one I felt needed to stay in the vault. It took me YEARS to get over this, let alone stop thinking about it. Here and there, it pops up in my mind and I’m like, “who summoned you?”. This is one of those “shoulda, woulda, coulda” joints. This “friendship” was the root of my […]
More…time never goes our way, but we still find ourselves mad at it. Trying to control it. Planning every hour. Every minute. Hell, every second. I’m often mad at time. Swear I’m on top of it and it runs from beneath me. I often hate the end of time. End of vacations. End of shows. […]
MoreIyanla always asked her guests, “When did your heart break?”. Almost instantaneously, they would cry and say something like, “I was 5 years old.” You can imply what she means, but in this case, I mean the emotional breakdown of relationship. The moment you learn that the person(s) you trusted the most betrayed you. The […]
MoreDo you ever feel like you overshare? Just have everybody all up in your business? Overshare is my middle name. I always want people to fully understand me, but I’m constantly on the fence between opening up and shutting up. I’ve experienced my words being used against me one too many times, especially in the […]
MoreI’m struggling to find what my heart is into. Emphasis on struggle. Swift changes in career can do that to you. I’ve been sitting on an unfinished manuscript, a blog that was meant to flourish, several drafted beginnings to short stories, and books that have yet to be read, let alone looked at. What is […]
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